Patience: day 363

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As 2013 comes to a close, so do my word for the year:  Patience.   This has been an interesting year for patience.  I’ve learned that my patience can be tested to its limits in trying to prepare a house for sale, packing a house, and dealing with prospective buyers.  The whole process of selling a house could test the very limits of a saint’s patience.

I didn’t post for over 200 days in the middle of year.  I didn’t even think about posting.  Scott had some health-related issues that really threw our lives for a loop.  My job got very, very stressful.  I couldn’t do much more than come home and de-stress every day.  It’s still pretty stressful.  I don’t see that ending any time soon.  But through all that stress, I’ve learned a great deal about myself and about being a better leader.  I wouldn’t change that for anything.

Be still in the presence of the Lord,
    and wait patiently for him to act.
Don’t worry about evil people who prosper
    or fret about their wicked schemes.

Stop being angry!
    Turn from your rage!
Do not lose your temper—
    it only leads to harm.
For the wicked will be destroyed,
    but those who trust in the Lord will possess the land.
Psalm 37:7-9

I’ve learned that I have A LOT more work to do on my patience, but it’s a start.  So, I close out 2013 having a little more patience.  I start 2014 with a brand new word that will be announced on 1/1/2014.  Happy New Year!

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Patience: day 350

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Only 15 more days until the end of the year.  It’s hard to believe what 2013 brought my family and me.  So many changes and challenges, but I know I’m better for them.

Today was one of THOSE days.  You know, those days that you have every intention of getting up and getting going, but them stuff gets in the way.  Scott and I were already a little late this morning.  Because he’s riding a bus to work, we have a schedule that we have to keep.  In 7-11, this girl decided to fill out her lottery tickets while in line with others behind her.  As she would win, she would buy more.  Meanwhile, coffee grows cold and the bus isn’t going to wait.  After our 10 minute wait, in which she advised us something like everyone gets their turn in line, I got Scott over to the bus stop and got on my way to work.

Yes, all sorts of people cutting me off and then slowing down to a snail’s pace.  UGH!  As I was merging on to the highway, a guy decides to move into the lane and cut me off.  After cutting me off, he then proceeded to move back to his former lane.  I’m pretty such that he couldn’t see the steam coming out of my ears, but that’s just a theory.

In a moment of clarity, I spoke right out loud in the car, “Jesus, I can’t do this without you today!”  Amazingly, my brief prayer, spoken out loud, was exactly what I needed to pray.  From my mouth (and heart) to God’s ear.  He really does listen.

Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always. ~ 1 Chronicles 16:11

Answer me when I call to you, O my righteous God. Give me relief from my distress;
be merciful to me and hear my prayer. ~ Psalm 4:1

The LORD is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth. ~ Psalm 145:18

Patience: Day 333

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Well, hi there!  It’s been a bunch of days since I posted for Patience 2013 (My One Word).  2013 has been a very interesting year.  We moved in February.  We are getting ready to sign our new lease.  I can’t believe how quickly time flies.

Tim has been in school studying auto mechanics.  After a bumpy start, he’s found his stride and it doing really well; better than he did in all of his prior schooling.  Scott is doing well after a small issue with his health this summer.  He’s been riding the bus downtown and learning to love the quiet time that he has without being concerned with traffic.  He’s teaching again at work and at church.  This pleases him to no end because one of his gifts is teaching.

Me…well that’s where my patience has been tested.  I have a new supervisor.  This is a good thing.  He was hired outside of our agency and his new ideas and his mentoring have made me consider my current employment.  I’ve been with my employer for just about 24 years.  I’ve almost always loved my job, but this year has been a challenge.  I have been made a Lead Case Manager 2; a position that’s come without authority or pay.  I need to make it very clear that I don’t do my job for the pay.  I get paid more than I ever thought I would, so it’s not about the pay.  However, without authority, what I ask of my team mates doesn’t really go very far.  This “promotion” came with some negatives in that staff that felt that they should have been made a Lead were not for my being made one.  Not only was I made the Lead over the Disability unit (my original unit I’ve been with), I was also made Lead over a new Family Housing unit.  I’ve been working on the Family Housing program since about March, but the program hasn’t started yet.  It was pushed behind another new unit, the Navigator unit.  They are working with the Affordable Care Act, better known as ObamaCare.  Then, I was put in charge of events and outreach for the Navigators.  Here is where my patience is tested to its outer limits.  I can’t even go into it because I never know who might be reading this, but let’s just say that I feel like I’m banging my head against the wall on a daily basis.

With increased stress, patience tends to decrease.  And, boy, has my patience been stretched.  I’ve had more ocular migraines, more headaches, more weird dreams, problems sleeping, short conversations with my family, and the list goes on.  I’ve had to learn to stop being concerned about things that I can’t control.  The new phrase at work is “it’s above my pay scale”.  This attitude, which I’ll admit I’ve had to learn to adopt, is foreign to me.  I don’t like having to not care about things.  I’ve had to learn to keep my mouth shut in many instances.  This is truly a test of my patience.  I feel blessed to be able to speak with my boss openly about my feelings on what’s going on and he speaks to me openly about his concerns.

One of the new thoughts that’s come to mind this year is that I would be willing to leave my nice, comfortable, familiar job of 24 years to follow my boss should he decide some day to leave for other employment.  In the past, this kind of thought would have almost made my head explode.  THIS. IS. SCARY!!!  However, having a boss that supports my occupational growth by mentoring me and opening up my knowledge to what other agencies are doing is a very cool thing.  It’s very freeing as well.  I know that there is something bigger and better for me.  If that means leaving the comfort of the familiar then so be it.  I hope I won’t have to test this theory soon though.

I have learned from my son, Tim, that I can live two ways:

Living
In

FEAR
Everyday

or

Living
In

FAITH
Everyday

I’m choosing to live in faith!  I think that the Bible makes is abundantly clear in Jeremiah 20:11I know the plans I have in mind for you, declares the Lord; they are plans for peace, not disaster, to give you a future filled with hope.  How can I argue with that?  I can’t!  I know that God’s plans are better than mine.  I have to remember that He has my best interest in mind.  His plans are better than I can think or imagine.

Glory to God, who is able to do far beyond all that we could ask or imagine by his power at work within us.
Ephesians 3:20

I figure that if my cat, Eddy, can be patient and wait for the squirrel, I can be patient and wait on the Lord.  And if I can do it, then you can too!

imageI’ll get you, Mr. Squirrel!  Just you wait and see.

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Patience – day 97

patience chick The Lord isn’t really being slow about his promise, as some people think.
No, he is being patient for your sake.
He does not want anyone to be destroyed, but wants everyone to repent.
- 2 Peter 3:9