Well, hi there! It’s been a bunch of days since I posted for Patience 2013 (My One Word). 2013 has been a very interesting year. We moved in February. We are getting ready to sign our new lease. I can’t believe how quickly time flies.
Tim has been in school studying auto mechanics. After a bumpy start, he’s found his stride and it doing really well; better than he did in all of his prior schooling. Scott is doing well after a small issue with his health this summer. He’s been riding the bus downtown and learning to love the quiet time that he has without being concerned with traffic. He’s teaching again at work and at church. This pleases him to no end because one of his gifts is teaching.
Me…well that’s where my patience has been tested. I have a new supervisor. This is a good thing. He was hired outside of our agency and his new ideas and his mentoring have made me consider my current employment. I’ve been with my employer for just about 24 years. I’ve almost always loved my job, but this year has been a challenge. I have been made a Lead Case Manager 2; a position that’s come without authority or pay. I need to make it very clear that I don’t do my job for the pay. I get paid more than I ever thought I would, so it’s not about the pay. However, without authority, what I ask of my team mates doesn’t really go very far. This “promotion” came with some negatives in that staff that felt that they should have been made a Lead were not for my being made one. Not only was I made the Lead over the Disability unit (my original unit I’ve been with), I was also made Lead over a new Family Housing unit. I’ve been working on the Family Housing program since about March, but the program hasn’t started yet. It was pushed behind another new unit, the Navigator unit. They are working with the Affordable Care Act, better known as ObamaCare. Then, I was put in charge of events and outreach for the Navigators. Here is where my patience is tested to its outer limits. I can’t even go into it because I never know who might be reading this, but let’s just say that I feel like I’m banging my head against the wall on a daily basis.
With increased stress, patience tends to decrease. And, boy, has my patience been stretched. I’ve had more ocular migraines, more headaches, more weird dreams, problems sleeping, short conversations with my family, and the list goes on. I’ve had to learn to stop being concerned about things that I can’t control. The new phrase at work is “it’s above my pay scale”. This attitude, which I’ll admit I’ve had to learn to adopt, is foreign to me. I don’t like having to not care about things. I’ve had to learn to keep my mouth shut in many instances. This is truly a test of my patience. I feel blessed to be able to speak with my boss openly about my feelings on what’s going on and he speaks to me openly about his concerns.
One of the new thoughts that’s come to mind this year is that I would be willing to leave my nice, comfortable, familiar job of 24 years to follow my boss should he decide some day to leave for other employment. In the past, this kind of thought would have almost made my head explode. THIS. IS. SCARY!!! However, having a boss that supports my occupational growth by mentoring me and opening up my knowledge to what other agencies are doing is a very cool thing. It’s very freeing as well. I know that there is something bigger and better for me. If that means leaving the comfort of the familiar then so be it. I hope I won’t have to test this theory soon though.
I have learned from my son, Tim, that I can live two ways:
I’m choosing to live in faith! I think that the Bible makes is abundantly clear in Jeremiah 20:11 – I know the plans I have in mind for you, declares the Lord; they are plans for peace, not disaster, to give you a future filled with hope. How can I argue with that? I can’t! I know that God’s plans are better than mine. I have to remember that He has my best interest in mind. His plans are better than I can think or imagine.
Glory to God, who is able to do far beyond all that we could ask or imagine by his power at work within us.
I figure that if my cat, Eddy, can be patient and wait for the squirrel, I can be patient and wait on the Lord. And if I can do it, then you can too!
I’ll get you, Mr. Squirrel! Just you wait and see.